Making more time for me.

 I am the most important person in my life.

In 2018 I tried setting aside more time for myself and succeeded in some retrospect. For 2019 - I'm coming with full force. I am making it a full-time commitment to practise better self-care. I've mentioned this many times and I will mention it again - I always put others before myself.

Last year saw me quit my job and end up being jobless for 4 months. It wasn't intentional for me to have that long of a break but it worked out for the better because I just needed some time out. It was the breather that I needed and craved. The funny thing is that I didn't know that I needed it until it was happening. After quitting my job I was left with just me, myself and I. I was so used to my daily routine of waking up, going to work and coming home that when I didn't have to do that anymore I would just wake up and have no idea what to do with myself.

So, I did what any smart person would do... I SLEPT. It sounds stupid saying that I spent a lot of my free time sleeping but lack of sleep was a really big factor in my life. I was physically drained and my body needed those extra hours of sleep. I became lazy and barely got out of bed most mornings. Can you imagine searching for jobs whilst living in bed for the first 2-3 weeks of being unemployed? I can't either. It hit me that I couldn't do this anymore. It became unhealthy and I let it go on for too long.

As much as I tell people that I hated my temporary bar job (which was my back up job just in case I had no stream of income) this job helped me through one of the hardest periods of my life. Not only did this job let me live my best life, but it showed me another side that I never knew I had in me. I just allowed life to do its thing. I said yes to more outings, events and opportunities. I had nothing to hold me back anymore. No excuses of being too tired from work or not having any money. I kid you not, I finally had a summer worth shaking up my whole life for. Who would have thought not having a job was just what I needed?

So where does that leave me now? I'm back to work but that's not going to stop me. I'll make sure to give myself a not just a chance but all the chances in the world to either relax or go out. Today is January 20th and I am so happy to say that I've done so much more than what I expected I would do. I have so many more plans in store and I can't wait to see how they all pan out. I'm happy with how far I've come but I've got so far to go and that's the best feeling a girl could have... and that's the real tea.

"You owe yourself the love that you so freely give others."

T ❤️

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