Trying to Have it All.

I struggle with this on a daily basis.

This is just me rambling but in this day an age, people expect you to have it all. I am only 22 years old and the goals that I have set myself are waaaaaaaay too high (it's time to be realistic). At my current stage, I do not have it all and it somewhat pains me to tell you this. I thought that I would be finically secure, ready to move out and beginning my journey to one day securing a husband (plus kids too.. amen).

Right now, I'm not on that road and it's taken many internal breakdowns to realise that this is okay. I love knowing what I'm doing for weeks and weeks to come but living like that comes with consequences. I always assume that I need to have things going on in my life. This may be going out to events, meeting up with friends, having a constant stream of work, steady income etc. Not having plans 24/7 is alright.

What I've started to ask myself lately is "How can I balance all of this and remain happy and positive?". I'm sure there is a way, but right now it's too much to maintain and I've ultimately called it quits - literally. Life update coming soon as I plan to write a whole separate post but for now, as I want to talk about this.

It's okay to not have it all. It's okay to wake up one morning and have no idea what you want to do anymore. It took me ages to realise that it's fine not having plans and goals all the time. Sometimes you just need a huge reality check to shake a few things up in your life and I needed that. I needed something different to happen to me, something I wasn't fully prepared for. It's given me a whole new outlook on life and it's nice to not have it all for once. To not be that person in your friendship group where they all look at you and say that "you're sorted, you're fine, you're so secure" makes me so damn happy.

I have no idea what prompted me to write this, but in this time that I am in not having it all. I just need to embrace this change and see where it takes me. Somedays I'm excited and some days I'm scared, but overall I'm ready for whatever comes my way. It will all come to plan when the time is right.

"The secret to having it all is knowing that you already do."


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