Focus on YOURSELF.

As the new year is just around the corner, focusing on myself is going to be my number one priority.

I do feel as if I have written something along the lines of this before but hey, you can never just say things more than once - am I right?. I always tell myself this at least once a month but do I ever listen? I guess once in a blue moon is okay riiiiight... nope? Okay yeah, I thought so.

I can't help but put others before me. It's in my nature and I feel as if that this is one of my life purposes is to help others before I help myself. I don't know why and I've tried so hard to put this lifestyle behind me and start anew but it happens over and over again. I am quite sick of it, to be honest, I would love to just throw my hands up and be like "nope, I come first" but my heart says NO. I feel like this is a big problem and by addressing it on here I am bringing it to light in the hopes that I can recognise the triggers and stop myself from falling back into this terrible routine. It really is mentally & physically draining.

I pray that 2018 brings me the focus to get myself together. I hope that I can turn this page and keep moving forward. I know it'll be hard, but I'm willing to work on this so that I can keep soaring. Choosing to do this when the new year starts is very typical and symbolic but for me, it's all about change and what better time to start eh? I'm already getting a small headache about this but hopefully, this just means that I'm serious and willing to have my head hurting if it means that the outcome is different and not the same result it always has been. Have I gone off track? Maybe. I mean it's me, I always do this.

Back to the point of this blog post. Focusing on yourself doesn't mean you shouldn't care about others, but it does mean that you need to put yourself in a position where you come first. If you don' then why are you bothering? I don't want this to come across as selfish, but in life sometimes number one should be well number one. Fin. Drops mic. The end. Okay, I'm done.

"Don't focus on what you're up against, focus on your goals and ignore the rest."

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